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Rethinking My Rightness

I used to label myself as a conservative Christian.

Used to.

Lately, I'm almost ashamed to even be called a "christian" (that lowercase "c" is on purpose). It seems that over the last eight to ten years, being "christian" has become more about being right than about being Christ-like. It's more about enforcing a perceived level of moral behavior that has nothing to do with a person's heart (what was that Jesus said about a "whitewashed tomb" in Matthew 23:27?).



Being "christian" has become more about power, control, and supremacy than it is about loving your neighbor or your God.

I'm deeply saddened by the current "christian" focus on the sins of others (LGBTQ anyone?), by the lack of humility, by the pain inflicted (knowingly and unknowingly) on those who are unlike us.

I've recently seen the ugliness of my own whitewashed tomb.

I don't like it.

I cried to see that my heart contains such haughtiness and to know that haughtiness and pride look nothing like Jesus.

I want to be a Christian. A Christ-follower. I want to live out a dynamic, heart-changing, life-changing relationship with the One who loves me beyond what I can imagine.

And when all is said and done, I don't want to be right. I want to look like Jesus. 


I want my life to look like Love.





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